EVERYTHING WENT WELL TODAY!! So happy it all went well. So HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY, lots of friends are supportive of me.

Nervous... Another special Sunday. Another.. Ugh.. I hope all goes well. I do want all goes well.

I'M SORRYYY BUT WHY PURSUIT OF JADE IS SO GOOD??? I've never watched CDrama in a VERY long time and OMG I am very much STUCKED to this show.
YAN ZHENG IS SO AHHHHH. ChangYu is so AHHH. JUST SUCH MY TYPEEEEE. If there's any show similar to this, I'D WATCH. I just LOVE Wuxia type fantasy since kids.

Good morning... My morning starts with many thoughts. What do people think of me behind my back? It scares me, it worries me. My people pleasing tendencies is showing up again.

It's no joke, most of my life this is what I suffer from, this is my great internal battle. But I'm not saying it's others' fault, I blame myself. I hate that I couldn't do things right, and I hate that I don't meet to a certain standards. But what I hate about others is that when they're not honest to me. When they could've help me or be merciful, I've been mocked instead.
All I wanna do is what I do best, but is it truly growth...

It is one of those days, where I wish I never knew any people at all. But do I truly wish so?

It seems I'm officially not in a good term with someone at church and it feels hard to work with them in the future. I've never meant harm, it's the type of thing where they just wouldn't open up if there's something trespassed them. It made me feel horrible at all times but I've always treated them as good friend. Recently they've done something that trespassed everyone... so it's all just cold airs.
For my case, what I don't like is, if I've done mistakes why not just say it to me instead of telling others it's my fault? The supposedly "wrongdoings" to me didn't seem like it happened at all because it's all been good on my side. Things that they've done as mistakes I've NEVER share to others, I've only kept it to me and yet the opposite has been done to me. Plus, what they've actually done is throwing blame at me, that's what others said. They did a mistake (in leading), blamed me to everyone & threw me under the bus (I was helper), then treats me cold. WHAT!!! You are almost a decade older than me, why do you act like we're all high schoolers.
Only now I've started sharing it others because I need to be prepared, I have a feeling they might break me at some point in the future. I feel heartbroken because I've always thought of them as good friend ESPECIALLY in church, but from what it seems they just want to be the victim by hurting others.

But tbh, I still couldn't bring myself to be as mean towards them.

It is Good Friday day~ A fresh outing with friends today and I ate really good sandwhiches, chicken pesto and egg & beef bacon. Fancy sandwiches often comes with a hefty price... for some sandwiches. These are the type of food you'd pay for not to get full, but to experience the taste & flavor. It is wholemeal breads tho, cheaper and less fulfilling. I would love it if I could go for sourdough but, there's an add on money for that. A friend said the smoky part of the taste is similar to the smell of armpit, I couldn't untaste it afterwards.
The worse part is the drink, lemon matcha. Twelve whole bucks for something that taste just like lemon water, but green!!! How on earth can matcha taste this tame!!! Are we truly in the age of matcha inflation... Years ago, it was hard to find but at the same time it would always tastes good. Did they used mini-teaspoon measurement for this drink!!! Blek!! I feel scammed.

i have finished da Blogs Room!!!! Yay!!! Micro-blogs uses iframe so I can put it on the home-page as well without rewriting everything. It's quite late now I don't think I have time to write out for the blog room? Oh well, if it's finished when you view it at this time that means I sacrificed sleep XD
I also spent few hours drawing the avatars for micro-blogs, if I'm unhappy I might change. Tbh, it's supposed to be wigglypaint's gif but after I drew it on Krita, when I import the drawing it became blank so... just png it is :')
Anyway, I spent two days on straight on hours working on this website. Somehow I've been feeling really motivated to get things done. I guess once you set up the CSS, it gets easier? Idk XD

Next up is... Artwork gallery. Well, right after I polished css & page directions for the writing rooms -w-

P.S. Here are some of the avatars upclose :)